Foolish Note

Sometimes we learn to start. Sometimes we learn to quit. And sometimes we learn too much tings. Sometimes that ‘sometimes’ will always be ‘sometimes’ in this life. There will be no things can stay longer, no one can start without end, no life without die.

Everyday people learn everything just because they have to do. Life without movement is just an absurd. Move, even like eyelid. So fast and it is unrealized-able, uncountable too. Have you ever counted how many steps did u need between bed and shower? No one, expect the blind man.

Our body moves. Our mind moves too.

Today, I have an idea. That is an idea to do nothing. I need my time. I need to feel my existence in this world without thinking of duties. People may call it as wasting time. Unproductive time. I said no one can judge me. This is what everybody needs to say ‘yes’.

There, on my table I can see them. Two slices of chocolate cake, a bowl of hot egg noddle, and a cup of strawberry ice cream. I know they are not good for my teeth. Don’t remind me. And don’t say that you want them too.

I turn the movie on, start seeing, start listening, and then start feeling bored. I saw this movie three times; I can still remember the scene. But I let it turned. I know that I am not really focus on that movie, and then I just listen to the sounds.

I move to my shelf, seeing many books on there. This one I read four times, that one five times. How boring is today to read anything. I want to stop. I want to sleep but I am not too sleepy. I have no mail today. I have no new book to read. I have no movie to see.

I laid my body on the floor. My legs move, my hands too. My eyes see my cake, my noddle and my ice cream. I don’t want to let them melted. I reach each of them and then eat them. Finish. Then what? No other things I can eat. I go back to the floor, laid my body on the cool floor. I wish I was sleepy, but I am not.

How exciting is doing nothing, I said it.

I can hear the clock. Tik. Tok. Tik. Tok. Tik. Tok. Time is walking, not running. It is so slowly. And I am on this period of slowly. I am doing nothing, just enjoying this time slowly pass the noon. Sometimes I need to learn many things, sometimes I need to stop. And sometimes is just ‘sometimes’.

I don’t know. And I don’t care. I just want to do nothing.